2nd month-versary

sun ups, sun downs..

each of the moments..

we shares them while we are each at different places..

never a moment i think of giving up..

never a moment that i dont miss you..

knowing you are far from physical distance..

you are living in my heart..

deep down inside..

these are my promises to you, my beloved..

1st..

i will never relate you to my past..

2nd..

i will pray hard for God to take away all my phobia..

3nd..

my heart is only Alex's.

Please do not lose your hope..

Please never leave me..

Please let nothing be obstacles within you and me..

Please remember that i love you..

from now..

124hours to go..

i love u

Alex & Jose

Just..

Do u know how much do i miss u?

i guess u will never know..

miss u..

wishing tht could see u next minute,

next hour,

or next day..

u cant come over,

well thn i will go and find u..

if u r busy,

well thn i will stay far away from u..

silently

staring at u..

if u could count the number of sand on the beach..

probably i miss u more than u can count..

sometimes..

i will lose my mind and always thought tht u r here..

when get back to conscious..

only i realise..

those are just illusions..

waiting ur msg..

waiting ur calls..

waiting ur arrival..

i will always look at my phone..

stare at the window..

just waiting ..

首号旨意

时间渐渐迈入昨日的11时59分…

想念你了，真的好想念…

但…

你都知道我想念你吗？

有多想念你吗？

别说爱你，我变得痛苦了…

别说仿佛要放弃的话…

选择了你，我从没想过推出…

一刻都没有…

好不容易才能在一起的…

好不容易鼓着勇气的…

好不容易得到的…

一分一秒，我都不会放弃…

爱你不是一分责任…

爱你,

是我生命中除了爱神以外，

首号旨意。

i duNno what aM i dOin..

the chocolate u bought goin to finish..

the orange juice u bought for me left not much..

the spagetti without u is tasteless..

the seconds without u i can't fly..

U migHt nOt knOw..

i dun dare to dream of u..

i always stare at the window..

i always saw ur illusion..

i always sleep at the corner of my bed..

i always thought u were in the room when i came back..

i always thought u were at the nearby basketball court playing..

i was about to cry when i realised tht was not u..

i hate myself being so dependent..

i wil feel happy when u call me b4 sleep eventhough i'm sleeping..

i always wish tht u wil tell me wherever u go..

i wish to go trsvel with u..

i am starting to be harsh to myself..

i force myself to be strong..

i wish so much tht u wil come but i dun wan to cox u trouble..

i feel happy when u r worryin of me cux tht shows u love me..

i wil hate myself if i am not there for ur bday..

i almost fell from stairs today cox of dizziness..

i am very stressed..

i miss u very much..

hOw dO i liVe withOut u?

i want to know..

Pls dun leave me..

eventhough i am not a qualified girl friend/soul mate/ life partner..

just pls dun turn ur face away from me..

u know tht..

i cant even breathe without u..

a long nite of tears..

could bring my life away..

as i cant survive..

even a second without u..

dun ever speak of those..

when u talk about those..

it ache my heart..

cox i love only u in my life..

until the last breathe of mine..

and i m serious.

the DisTaNce bEtweEn "U" and "I"

Have yOu evEr reAlise?

the distance between "u" and "i" is just..

about 1mm on the comp keyboard..

but..

the diStaNce betwEen Alex and Joselyn?

is zeRo..

Because..

"U" r living in "I"..

as

"I" have been deeply in love with "U"..

that's y..

"I" is closely next to "U" on the keyboard..

always and forever..

tHiNking of Alex

when i open my eyes from my dreams,

yOu are the 1st person in my thoughts..

wHen i gaze at my window,

i always wish tht yOu r there..

wHen i am back from class and open my room door,

wish yOu r sleeping soundly on the bed..

wHen i go to bed before close my eyes,

wish to watch u dream again..

When i am doing my rePort,

it always remind me that yOu help me do it..

wHen i see golden myvi pass by or just park there,

wiShing that were yOu..

wHen i am holding yOur shirts tht yOu left for me,

wiShing to hug yOu tightly..

wHen i am waiting for bus after classes,

i think of everytime yOu fetch me back..

wHen i am on the highways travelling within kampar and kuantan,

i think of the time yOu were beside me..

wHen i touch everything in my room,

the scene of having yOu displays in front of my eyes..

wHen i am mopping my floor,

always remind me that yOu used to watch me doing house chores..

when i was at the karak rest house,

i think of the sweet memories we have..

Sometimes i will smile and laugh alone,

Sometimes i will cry when missing yOu too much..

however,

knowing tht U love me..

those are my happiest tears..

Alex,

i love u..